If any of you have listened to my radio show, Messages From The Other Side, you always hear me encouraging my audience to write. I believe writing is extremely important: to vent, to ponder, to clarify your mind so you can release negative emotions and blocks, and open yourself up to revelations and possible solutions.
So, I took my advice last weekend and did some writing myself – I hesitate to say it’s automatic writing. It was more of a conversation between myself and those on the Other Side. My Higher Self, guides, guardians and angels. So, yes, messages from the Other Side. 😉 I got the sense of a group of loving beings or spirits, speaking collectively. It was pretty amazing.
One of my questions (ok, complaints) was: Why do I always have to be the one who initiates fun things with my family?
Here’s the conversation (for the purposes of this post, Spirit is all-inclusive.):
Me: “Why do I always have to be the one who initiates fun things with my family? I’m tired of it. Sometimes I want to be asked to play, to join in, to go for a walk, play a board game.”
Spirit: “Because you are you. By denying that, you are denying you and your loved ones of many happy times. All because your ego needs a boost.”
Me: “My ego? What? (I hadn’t realized that. Hmmm.) Well, as a result, I feel so alone.”
Spirit: “Yes, we realize that and that is a fallacy. You have to know that. All the anxieties, fears are because you are not living your life as your true self. You are the catalyst. You bring people together. That’s what you do. That’s why it’s usually YOU to bring up doing something, almost forcing them to participate in life together. It’s a good thing. Stop seeing it as a burden. It is one of your many gifts. In this same way, you’ll be very successful with groups, teaching, entertaining, yes, and learning too.”
Me: “Well, it’s irritating. I’m irritated with my husband and with my son about this – my skin (on my hands) has irritation on it. With life and my life too. I’m irritated with them for not being like me…[pause….revelation] ooooooooooo, interesting.” **cue the lightbulb moment music**
Spirit: “They have their own gifts and abilities, focus on those, enhance those, appreciate those, bring them out. That is YOUR gift and they know it and love you for it. They are sad that you are sad. They only want to help you but don’t know how.”
As I mentioned on last week’s episode, the fact that all this time, I’ve wanted them to be more like me, wanting them to initiate activities…like I did/do…when that’s not who they are! That’s my ego wanting them to prove that they love me enough to ask me to go for a walk, play a card or board game, or video game, watch a movie. Since they didn’t, no wonder I felt alone! Whoa. Major revelation.
I was shocked to realize my ego has held me back from not only acknowledging and appreciating my gift of motivating people, but also from acknowledging and appreciating my husband’s and son’s gifts and abilities – and from creating some fun memories! Ouch. That hurts.
By the way, even though they may groan initially about my suggestion, they always participate and thank me afterwards. “That was a good idea, hon.” “Yeah, that was fun, Mom.” 😀
I have to say since I’ve had this revelation, my feelings of irritation have disappeared and my hands are healing. I feel much lighter. Cool, huh?
Where in your life are you letting your ego run the show? Where is your ego holding you back from living and loving your authentic self and your loved ones?
If you’re not sure, take a moment, tap into your intuition, Higher Self, any guides, guardians or angels you want (or all of them!), and ask. Then listen and let me know what you find out in the comments below. 🙂
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